Chapter 76 - I GOT YOU...BUT I LOST EVERYTHING ELSE!!!
Tinsley struggled in carrying her drunk husband to their bedroom.
His arms snaked around her waist and she held him close to her body as they both walked up the stairs.
"Leave me...I can walk myself just fine."
Kian said, pushing her aside on the midway. Tinsley held onto the railing of the stairs to hold her balance.
"Why are you being so rude to me?? What did I even do??"
She asked with hurt evident in her voice. She was tired from listening to all his nagging.
She was not sure what to do, how to calm him down. Was he already done with her??
"Just leave me alone."
He said, before trying to lazily climb up the stairs. When he was about to lose balance, Tinsley held him back.
"That I cannot do...for now."
She uttered and hoped that he would try to understand her at least. She was only here for help and nothing more.
"What more do you want??"
Kian questioned, getting tired of the woman who kept pressing onto him as if he was bound to her forever now.
He wanted to be anywhere but with her. Her presence was disturbing to him. It reminded him of why he ended up losing every damn thing.
"I want nothing...I want only for you to be safe. "
Tinsley mumbled, tears flowing freely down her eyes. She did not get it why he was behaving like that to her.
Just a night ago, they were happy and making love, only for him to turn against her completely the other day...as if this man was not her husband but a completely new different man in his body.
"Nothing is safe anymore now that I have you, my dear."
Kian cruelly said, laughing out loud. His laughter echoing in the manner.
"You are my undoing. They really do say it right...you are a bad omen, Tinsley Rutherford. "
He went on venting his anger and frustrations out at her. She cried silently, eyeing him and stood on her ground.
"Any man...any man could have got you...why me?? Why come to me??? Why cross paths with me?? Huhh??"
Kian stepped down and held on her jaw tightly, raising her face up to his height. His eyes roamed around her crying red face.
"Did you lie to me about us sharing a past too?? To get me acquainted with you??"
Tinsley remained mum. She had nothing to say to him. She was not going to take his words to heart because he did not mean it...mean any of those.
He was drunk out of his mind and that had led to him being losing any righteous sense.
Any drunkard man would do the same...they would let loose their anger and anguish to the last person they see before losing their consciousness.
"Answer me, goddamnit!!!"
He screamed, making Tinsley jerk backwards. She was astonished and shocked by his sudden outburst.
"I have never....lied to you."
She cried out with a whimper. She had never seen him snap out at her like that at all.
"I lost all...everything. Do you know that??"
"So what do you want me to do about it, Kian??? I m clueless here...I m trying to understand but I can\'t when you dump it all on me..."
Tinsley spoke up. He wanted her to speak so she did.
She walked forward and held his face even though he tried to sho away her touch.
"I love you, Kian...it does not matter to me anything till I have you...all I ever wanted is you..."
She let out, staring deep into his brown orbs. She wanted him to listen to her...hear her heart out.
"You are not what I wanted..."
He softly voiced it out, looking straight at her. It pierced her heart like a sharp needle but she stood on her ground, bearing it all.
"I lost her....the very close person to my mother...because of you. "
Tinsley could sense his pain. He was grieving not only because of the materials but also for he had lost someone irreplaceable...his aunt...Valeria.
The woman who raised him held him, promised to be with him forever...she left him for her.
It was then at that moment, she could understand where all of these was coming from.
No matter how much she tried to deny it..deny that she could fill every kind of void with her love in his heart and soul...there would always be one void she could never fill and it was Valeria.
He was deeply hurt by her actions. She did not only stop at taking away everything he had built and lived for fifteen years but also took away her name from his.
How crueller could it get???
She could then get why he was blaming her and perhaps it was indeed true...her arrival in his life had cost him everything and everyone else in his life.
She could not get hurt...she could not perceive to be the only hurt one here. It was him...him who was hurt more than anyone.
Valeria was the next...she lost her son...for her. She came in between all of them and look what happened.
"I m sorry...I m so sorry."
She cried out, could not be able to stop anymore. She had no idea what else she could do.
How could she ease his pain a little? She wanted to help him...help him in even the slightest way possible.
His hurting was killing her soul very deep. She could not bear to look at him like that...a tough man who was praised by all now at his lowest.
A strong man when they get hurt...when they have never been defeated...or lost nothing at all in their life but when they do...they break.
And it was her worst fear...she could not let it come to that.
"I got you but I lost everything...you will always be the reminder of it and I will remind you of how you took everything away from a man...who wished nothing but your safety. "
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